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These Spinach Sun Dried Tomato Quesadillas are an easy weeknight meal when you are short on time. Fast, easy and delicious, this one is sure to become a staple.
Every time I write I feel like I am apologizing for how long it has been since I last posted. I'm pretty sure I've read some blogging guru say you should never do that.

So I won't today.

I will just say that as of late, life has been more than a little overwhelming. As much as I wanted to continue this journey, it was a season to take some time for myself.

In truth, I haven't felt good in the 13 months since Skye was born. I attributed it to having a baby in my 40's, our crazy location independent lifestyle and, most recently, just they fact that Skye never stops.

In truth, I knew it was something more.

I knew it wasn't normal for me to fall asleep at 7pm when Skye went down, leaving Vincent to make sure the boys got to bed OK. Nor was it OK to sleep the night and wake up more tired that I'd been the night before. I knew that it shouldn't hurt to hold my baby, yet my joints were so sore there were many times that I just wanted to cry. My hair was falling out.

And weight loss. Yeah, that just stopped after the first 45 pounds and then I gained 10 pounds back, despite the fact that nothing changed in what I was doing.

And then there is they way I have felt disconnected from everyone and everything, with the possible exception of Skye. That, I'm not happy to say, included the boys. Everything just felt like it was too much.

I was exhausted, depressed and at the end of my rope.

In my heart I believed that either there was something seriously wrong with me or that I had just slipped over the edge into a dark place from which there was no return. Surely it was my fault.

Last week I finally got some answers.

I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism, which is a much more complicated disease that I could have imagined.

(Most likely I have Hashimotos - some 80% of people with hypothyroid disease do and pregnancy is a trigger - but I have to go back and have another test to find out.)

I started treatment a little over a week ago and also have dug in to learn everything I possibly can about this disease. I've read articles like this one and this one and realized that I'm not crazy, nor am I alone. I've also read stories of many people beating it through lifestyle changes and am optimistic that I can too. Most likely I will need to make some pretty dramatic diet changes, but honestly I am at a point where I will do anything just to feel better.

I know I am on the right track because after ten days it seems that a fog is slowly lifting. My eight year old told me I must be all better because I was acting better. (Heartbreaking in a way.) I see a world of possibilities where before there was just endless fatigue.

I know this will be a long journey, but at least I'm on the right road.

So, there you have it - why this website has been a bit of a start and stop project.

Now, let's eat!

These Quesadillas have long been a favorite around our house. They are perfect for those nights when you just don't have the energy to cook!